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im *really* sorry about entry i just made. i don't know how to do trigerring on here. if someone can tell me how to do it it would be muchly appreciated. i don't want anyone getting mad at me and i don't want to end up making someone feel bad due to my stupididty.
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[26 Jan 2003|11:33am] |
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fuck that last entry.
ive been up for barely 4 hours and i'm a goddam pig.
water
banana
2 strawberries
2pices of candy corn
1 red starburst
1 cookie
age: 16
hw: 116lbs
cw: 103lbs
lw: 103lbs
short term goal: 100lbs
ultimate goal: 90-95lbs
height: 5'4"
i've never done the counting calories thing but i might start. i think it would help. i need to start restriciting or im gonna get nowhere and end up a fat pig. disgusting.
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[26 Jan 2003|01:46am] |
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Haven't really done anything with this journal and I was pretty excited about getting it. But Ana just makes me not care about anything else anymore. Just about my body. I can't deal with this anymore. I need help. I know I do. But I can't bring myself to telling anyone, though. I'm scared. I'm afraid of embarrassment and rejection. I don't know what to do anymore. I can't keep living like this. I try to bring myself to eat, but I just can't. Why did this have to happen to me? Why can't I be just like any other normal girl and just be happy with herself? *sighs* I will get over this some day and Ana won't be a part of my life anymore. I really hope I can get through this. Only way to do that is to get help first. That's enough for now. This is really getting to me and I'm literally in tears.
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Hey. Just got this journal. Figuring out how everything works. It sure is confusing! I'll write more later. Bye!
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